15 minutes after I quit at Red Rock, Myer called me into to work that day and the day after. I asked to leave 1 hour early from work at Myer because I wasn't feeling 100%. I also called in my first sickie today, although I wouldn't like to call it a sickie because I was an emergency and Ladies Wear isnt my department.
I was so knacked with this fever that I sat in the tea room staring into space. I didnt notice the trial of drool that slipped out of my mouth and on to my skirt. I looked down and didnt bother to care if any one saw, or even to wipe it off. My priorities were different today. Rest. Sleep. Warm. Home. I counted my break from when I entered and left the tea room, not when I left the floor. I didnt care if I got in trouble I wasnt in a good mood so today would be a perfect day to fight me.
I cracked my phone screen in the Myer toilets as I was taking a 10 minute break. I dropped it at knee height on tiles. fucking hell. with a phone as expensive as this can't they make these screens a little more durable??? or even scratch resistant?? the camera glass fell out too. at least it still senses my touch.
The Red Rock breakup wasn't a positive one. The HR manager was frustrated and disappointed in me because I didn't wanna sick it out doing cafe jobs til Little Ludlow opened.
3am?? What did I tell you about calling at inapproriate times?
The managers phone are manned 24/7 and I wanted to give ample time to have my shift covered
The managers aren't meant to know what we spoke about
I thought the duty managers would know eventually
You weren't patient enough. I made it clear in the interview that you would have to work at these places til the bar opened
You might think you made it clear but I didnt know what it was gonna be.
So you're not going to finish your shifts with us?
Yeah nah
There's no point in arguing with you.
I seriously didnt know where I couldve been more fair about this whole quitting situation. I spoke to him on two occassions before this phone call, he told me to either choose Myer or Red Rock, he told me I was on a 2 week trial period so I could see for myself if I liked it or not... I chose Myer over Red Rock and I quit during the trial period.
Today I had to face them because I needed to give back my Visitors Security pass, the Crew Card, and their uniform. I met with Simon the friendly and timid duty manager.
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I went to the doctors for the first time in years regarding an illness that isnt cancer. It was my 39 degree fever that ate and vince had been bugging me to see a doctor about. I dont like doctors because they prescribe me medicine and I cant swallow solids like tablets and capsuls. I dont like medicine because I believe my immune system, void of medicines since I was 14 years old, is one tough maaaaaafucka. I like to keep my body as drug free as possible. I also believe that I can sleep off any sickness.
The doctor said it was a common viral infection. I needed rest, vitamin C and if I wanted, panadol and nurofen. He said they made liquid nurofen for babies, if I liked.
Vman despite his tiredness and early start tmrw morning came straight from work to take care of me. He took me to st. albans for pho which tasted like shit at Ha Long, then to the doctors and then to Melbourne airport to hand in my things.
I dont remember when the last time I was this sick so this is a big deal to me. Vman reckons I overworked myself. I think it may be a combination of lack of fresh air, cheap shoes = back pain, quick/sudden/repetitive movements, and a general unhappiness which let down my immune system and welcomed disease and infection to enter and spread.
I have learnt something though, being happy/laughing when your unwell makes headaches go away. Even if your faking it. I tried it from 12:30pm - 6pm at Myer.
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All good things come to an end but it was good while it lasted.
I've just finished reading the Alchemist and I've made more sense of it now than I did the other 2 times I've read it.
One point of the story is to value the moment that is now, do not dwell on the past or wonder about the future. Focus on the present so you can enjoy every moment of this fleeting moment.
I've never had to deal with this situation before. If I read into it like I normally do when I like to cause myself emotional torment, I would say my pride and dignity is no more. My heart skipped a beat and I was shattered. It was Edgardo Tuazon breaking up with me in year 8. However I wont read into it. I'm mature. I need lessons like these. I cant have everything my way and continue to do the wrong thing just because I get away with it. I learnt that when people have mutual respect for each other, things won't be awkward or spiteful.
How I'd hate it to be awkward or spiteful.
If I was any other person, I'd say I've had a bad week. But I'm not gonna put it all down to luck. This isn't fate. This is all up to me. I make my own luck.
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