Yeeaaaahhh Nuh

In line at security services at Melbourne airport, needing to get my visitors pass process so I can commence my new job at Red Rock Airport services pty ltd. His name is Rodney. He doesn't know how to speak Singalese. What a shame, he says. ____ Today was my first day at Red Rock. I worked at Hightide Express in the Virgin Concourse, Lvl 1 Melbourne Airport. This job is not what I hoped for, or what was listed in the job ad. I was serving cafe food, heating them up, putting through drinks on the register, cleaning tables, changing bins, stocking fridges, making coffees. The job description said bartender. I was less than impressed. I felt this was a job for young students who just had to make ends meet. I am looking for full time work, and if my full time job has nothing to do with my career as a designer then I want to be happy working at it. I didnt feel happy working there. I was a little down. The only upside was I learnt how to make coffee. A skill that will come in handy in the future. I felt working in this place was a step back. I knew by the end of my shift that I wouldn't be happy here and this wouldn't be a long time thing. Its not that I think I'm too good for that job. I told my friend who I was working with, that this wasn't what I expected, I wasn't looking for cafe work. And if i did want to work in a cafe, I would do it somewhere closer. To tell you the truth its not today wasn't that bad. Although the more I dwell on it, the more depressing it gets. Writing about sad things always makes it worse. Thats why my posts are positive or reflective... usually objective if it is. So I have work tmrw at Hightide, 10am - 6pm which my friend says 'If your thinking of quitting now, Hightide will make you think about it even more' I told her I'd see her on her and my Sunday shift, if I hadn't quit by then. Driving home, I had an epiphany. The reason why I feel so lonely, is not because of the lack of emotional appreciation around me, but because I don't have a passion, a hobby or a mission. I need to set myself a project. Submerge myself in it, like an emu does with its head in the sand. Engage myself so that no one will be able to contact me, I am too deep in thought and work. That'd teach me.

Gotye - Now You're Just Somebody That I Used To Know.