With The Devil On My Shoulder Telling Me OK GO!

You make me do naughty things. Not so much make, I do them willingly. The ultimate decision is mine. Temptation is a good thing. I like playing with fire, literally and metaphorically. I like seeing how close I can get without burning myself. It's a challenge. A game, a secret, a thrill.. all which leads to an escape from reality. I develop strategies and theories that make me better at it.

My obsession with escapism and fantasy/creating scenario's in my head. I act impulsively, consequences pushed aside. Ignorance is bliss. I want to be ignorant and selfish. I don't believe I'm a bad person however I don't believe I'll get away with it. Playing with people's emotions and fucking up reputations. Even those who love me will find it hard to stick by me. I'll pay for it later, I deserved to be taught a lesson. Everything will crash down on me and I have no one but myself to blame. I'll feel so alone.

But I'll think about that later.

Why everything that's supposed to be bad make me feel so good?

Everything they told me not to is exactly what I would

Man I tried to stop man I tried the best I could

But you make me smile

Never regret anything that made you smile.

Kanye West - Addiction