Xxplosive - Dr. Dre

I've got all this homework and i feel like i cant get it all done. i dont know where to start and i dont know exactly what to do. i know the end result, but how to get there? i do however, know the secret to get things completed and off my chest, that is to JUST DO IT.

today i was meant to get all this homework done, but it was such a beautiful day and i just wanted to laze around my room and listen to music, which is what i did. then it was time vman finished work so he came over here and we kick backed for a bit. most of the time he spent with my dad, trying to fix the new internet connection on my new computer. i was eating in the kitchen, watching Deal or No Deal while anio tried to wrestle mum into a headlock. mum was too ticklish for it to be successful.

vman's sister left for Thailand today. her flight will leave 17minutes from now. shes gone for a month to learn Mu Thai there, a form of martial arts. wow. i wish i could be as independent as that.

as i write this blog i listen to dr. dre's 'xxplosive'. i love this beat, its so gansta with the high pitch guitar bend, i dont think i can get enough of it 'when i met you last night baby, i blew your mind'. i downloaded 29seconds of that song on vman's phone and assigned it to my phone number so it plays when i ring him. i also love the song by tupac 'never had a friend like me'. the beats i tend to love have guitar playing in the background, usually the same notes over and over again. its weird how i dont get sick of guitar repetitivness when i cant stand the doof repetitiveness of techno music. that just does my head in. other good beats with a guitar in the back ground:

- Angie Martinez 'If I Can Go'

- Fabolous and Tamia 'Can't Let You Go'

- Baby Bash and Frankie J 'Suga Suga'

- Method Man 'Gotta Have'

i find these songs so laid back and cruisey, perfect for a lazy sunny afternoon as the orange yellow sun sets. perfect for a fruity cocktail overlooking the beach from a high rise pent house. ohhh how im influenced by these hip hop film clips. thats the life i wanna live.

Xxplosive - Dr. Dre & Nate Dogg

Perhaps i will save this photo to my desktop to remind me where i wanna end up.

back to reality. and so is sheila. that's wat her facebook nic says. fkn shattered. id be too. thats how you feel coming back from a mad holiday. depressed. leave the dreamlife behind and snap back to reality. i wonder when it can always be the dreamlife.

work tmrw. its a short 6-9pm shift with nadya, my favorite working buddy. after that i am finally going out for the night. woo hoo. i love getting dressed up and in heels. it adds to the whole experience. vman says tmrw is one year since i meet him at hush. one year already? it doesnt feel like it, feels like we met just a few months ago. its good that way, it keeps us fresh and young. i dont have anything pretty and new to wear tomorrow. i have plenty of heels that i havent worn, but im lacking in the sophisticated night time dress department. its time for me to buy another little black dress. my one and only got ruined in QLD when i washed it with a fluffy white towel. now my dress has white fluff stuck to it and the only way i can get rid of it is to cut it off with scissors. cb.

i want a tattoo. one that spans from across my back to the top part of my arm and shoulder. or perhaps a meaningful quote, written in Edwardian script across the top part of my back. but then i wouldnt see it?