I am pretty stressed right now. At first i thought this pain in my upper stomach that is making me dry retch meant I was hungry/thirsty/wasnt eating right but now i think its stress from work. I'm drinking peppermint tea and inhaling its flumes to calm me down.

One way to help anxiety to take a moment to write down your thoughts at the end of the day. I used to blog everyday but then I got busy.. the more i got busy, the more i got anxious. Until i realise, i am suffering from anxiety. I create little problems in my head and i stress over them. I think my obsession with being perfect is becoming an attribute to my anxiety. I think 'Do it perfect or dont do it at all' so most of the time, I don't do it at all or put it off for when I am in the mode/have more time/help to do it perfectly.

Simple things stress me out, like today: Optus msgs me to tell me I have used 80% of my internet data. i have 20% to last me 1 week. Stress mode. Or 46 boxes of delivery will come today, need to make non-existent room upstairs. Stress mode. I have only $8 to last me for the weekend, tinkles refuses to eat and her ribs are showing, tinkles nail is bleeding, Ate is moving out in 12 months time i need a place to live.. tinkles doesnt loose lead walk..


I need reset. How do I do this? I can watch Fight Club again but its a waste of 1.5 hours.. I could be focusing on doing somthing about what I stress about so I wont stress anymore? Or i could take a nap. mmm sleep - it makes everything go away.

Temporarily.


I look forward to my fridays. I actually feel like i deserve it. I work hard everyday, i take my work home with me and i dream about it.

6 more working days and I'm out of here. Going to the USA for one month and all i hope for is the coolest clothes/shoes, sleeping in til 11am and coming back with a 'hey, I really don't give a fuck' attitude.