You Dont Know So Shut The Fuck Up

After the shock, the sadness, the anger, the heartbreak and feeling scared and betrayed.. After the uncontrollable hand temors and unnaturally fast heart beats and the sudden drop of body temperature.. After the foul taste at the back of your mouth and out break of sweat.. After the flow of tears and silent screams into your pillow that release an emotional climax comes the numbness.

Congratulations. You have now hit rock bottom.

This is my favourite part, the part when I become invincible. Do your worst, nothing can hurt me now.

(Too bad being invincible doesnt last more than 10 minutes). Born alone, die alone.

Die. Die. Die.

And that will be all.

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Tonight is one of body polluting. Sheesha and my favourite red wine, listening to my fav Dr. Dre beat about 'when im sober you aint that fine', stuffing myself with dim sims and party pies. You know you have a problem when you're body polluting alone, at 11pm well into the night, and when you've got work tmrw morning.

If this world is a dog eat dog world then I can play that game back. Fuck you all who Fuck me over. It's my happiness over everything.

GABOS.

I'm lightheaded already.

*Lighthearted