'When are you coming back?"
which i was surprised. I said i didnt know. I remembered papa was getting us ready for primary school. usually it was mums job but she wasnt home. mum usually ties up my hair. I knew how to do it, i knew my dad had no clue but i asked him to tie up my hair while i ate at the kitchen table. He was baffled and confused. But he did his best and it worked. He looked at it with 'is that right?' I said yes. He kept looking at it because the question reoccured to him. haha. He slept with the door open last night, unusual. I saw the yellow light from his bedroom door from my opened bedroom. Our lights were touching.
I couldnt sleep last night. I kept thinking about the past. My heart was breaking. But I didn't want to be sad. I wondered what I did wrong. I feel degraded but it must not be my fault. I have a habit of reading into things too much. I know I am, but its my form of closure. I'd rather suffer now so I won't be disappointed when the truth comes out. or if the truth is positive, then i will be pleasantly surprised.
I hate fence sitting, its either black or white, yes or no, now or never!
'So rather than open my heart, I'm gonna lock it with a key
so that only the special ones,
can ever get to me'
George - Special Ones
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